Facsimile of reality

Everyone reads too much into everything. Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. It's flattering to know people come here, but this is just ridiculous. If you want to know something, I'm a phone call away.

I suppose it's just as well. From now on I'm reserving this space for AIESEC related news and my experiences abroad.

I'll put my personal thoughts elsewhere.

A silent serenade

Gonna be trying the audioblog thing. Seems neat. Wish me luck!

I'm still brainstorming ideas for this presentation I'm trying to create for the end-of-the-year banquet. I envisioned this touchy-feely capstone video that gave us some semblance of an EB identity, something similar to what the Canadian MC had done this past May. I'm a little worried though, because if this is done in the same way, it may come off as being superficial. Then I thought I could create a scrapbook of sorts that would scream high school graduation, but then there's the issue of finding equal photographic representation for everyone. I don't know. I'm getting more and more discouraged the more I think about it. But I feel that ultimately the most disheartening thing would be the complete lack of a presentation like that. I mean, we were a team for an entire calendar year. I guess we'll see where this goes after some footage is shot.

I miss my neighbors' cooking. I miss their cats and dogs. I miss their bratty children. I miss their eclectic houses. I miss the sense of extended family.


And life rolls on...

Shades of gloom

I've been told I'm too pessimistic, too negative, and ultimately that I don't seem like a happy person by any standard.

And not just by one person, or by one group of people.


I have to admit I'm a tad surprised. And I'm not quite sure what this implies. I thought I had my place in the world all figured out, at least for the next couple of years, and I had such grand plans. Now, I'm not sure that any of it is valid.


What do you do when you're told, "It's not enough"?

My whispered challenge

Nightmare Before Christmas.
In 3-D.
Hell yes.
And I still have the glasses for posterity.

It's amazing what a new perspective will do for your perception of something. I was never really a huge fan of the movie, but seeing it this way brought a new life to it.

Sometimes you can't help but wonder how you would feel about something when you see it under a different light. The shades of grey never seem quite as menacing as they really are.

What's the reasoning on the other side? I am trying really, really hard to understand why things are happening the way they are, nationally. Is there really, truly a good explanation for everything?

Maybe the way things are... really are as good as it gets. How do you differentiate reality from fantasy when you have no basis to do so?


Blah... so many uncertainties.

Bathed in warmth

For the first time in almost a week I was able to smell the cheap air freshener in my bathroom. I don't think I've ever been quite so happy to be able to use that sense in that room.

I've had a head cold since about Wednesday last week, and as the weekend began my sinuses completely clogged up. I spent the weekend eating bland food and coughing up phlegm, completely squandering my fall break. But now, yay!

In other news, I feel inexplicably happy. Not much else to say about it than that, but since this doesn't happen very often, I thought I should record it for posterity.

Apparently no one has applied for my VP position yet. It's disappointing, but I'm not going to freak out over it. Don't misunderstand, I care, but I'm not about to create undue stress for myself. I don't know what's going to happen if the deadline passes and no one applies, but I'll cross that hurdle when it comes. I suppose I could track people down and harangue them mercilessly to apply, but that's not something I'm comfortable doing. I honestly don't believe that it leaves a good impression, no matter how you do it, and if I don't believe in it, then it won't be successful because it will be written all over my face.

Meh, we shall see.

On a final note, I got this fortune cookie yesterday.
"You would make a good lawyer."